[When he felt Cliff scrubbing the smudge away, he waited until he was certain it was gone, then turned his head until his cheek was pressed against his palm and raised his hands to close around Cliff's. His skin was warm and he felt solid. Sometimes he still had nightmares about finding that battlefield and somehow it all played out wrong. He struggled through an ever expanding crowd of faceless winged shadows until both Cliff and Fayt were killed right in front of him. More than the other nightmares, the ones that lingered but he could barely recall, that one haunted him night after night.
But for now, Cliff was here. Souji closed his eyes and tried to quiet the unnatural fear that when he opened them, he'd be gone. He'd avoided relationships since he was old enough to have one for one reason or another. Here, he had become accustomed to the other person leaving him behind. It still scared him. Sometimes he had to stop himself from going to Cliff and Fayt's apartment in the middle of the night, just to reassure himself that they weren't going to leave. It was hard enough when Kohaku was gone, but if he lost the only other people he'd let himself become attached to here? What if he was left alone again? He knew he couldn't let himself fall prey to that mindset though. People would avoid him because that wasn't how normal people acted. Was it? He wasn't sure anymore.
Cliff's hand was warm though. That was all that mattered now. Souji opened his eyes and glanced up at Cliff.]
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But for now, Cliff was here. Souji closed his eyes and tried to quiet the unnatural fear that when he opened them, he'd be gone. He'd avoided relationships since he was old enough to have one for one reason or another. Here, he had become accustomed to the other person leaving him behind. It still scared him. Sometimes he had to stop himself from going to Cliff and Fayt's apartment in the middle of the night, just to reassure himself that they weren't going to leave. It was hard enough when Kohaku was gone, but if he lost the only other people he'd let himself become attached to here? What if he was left alone again? He knew he couldn't let himself fall prey to that mindset though. People would avoid him because that wasn't how normal people acted. Was it? He wasn't sure anymore.
Cliff's hand was warm though. That was all that mattered now. Souji opened his eyes and glanced up at Cliff.]
Thank you. I feel much better now.